Well, it didnt take long to happen. I shouldnt joke about the wheels falling off, cos they have and I dont know what to do about it anymore. I am so tired of thinking about food choices, lack of food choices, the gym, not doing enough in the gym, my posture, my lack of flattering clothes, the impending holidays, the impending lack of bikinis on those holidays.....aaaaaaaaargggggggghhhh
Its too much.
I need help if I want to totally overhaul myself. I take on too much and cant do this all on my own. I went out on Sunday night with my boyfriend for food and a few pints and when we went to a busy bar I felt so middle aged and flabby amongst all the hip young things. I dont like how I feel, and I dont feel like I am being true to myself by continuing to feel this way. I have to be brave enough to ask for help and accept it when it comes.
First thing I am going back to my sisters group on Wednesday, and signing up. Not sure if I can stay to class but I know from previous experience (at least for a few weeks) it will act as an incentive.
Next, I need to start chucking things out of my wardrobe that I have bought because they were cheap, "fun" or easy to wear. I want some grown up clothes, I want what I wear to say something about my mindset. I want to be taken seriously.
Then, I need to quit my job. But thats for another blog, another day.
Coo, rant over. I feel marginally better for that.
